Nothing Ever Is

dis appearance

2007-11-10T09:46:00.000-08:00

I

appears

and disappears

with you

permanentimpermanence

2007-11-08T09:37:00.000-08:00

I am

I am the sensual experience

I am the thoughts arising and dissapating

I am the emotions mingling with these

I am the addictions

I am

Everything is impermanent but the I am

anyeverywhereinyou

2007-11-07T20:51:00.000-08:00

You don't belong anywhere

Everywhere belongs in you

seeing through the matrix

2007-11-04T08:57:00.000-08:00

It really is a matrix we humans live within.

Our human experience and the matrix and everything else experienced as consciousness appear in the field of awareness which is closer to what we are beyond the temporary fabrications of creation.

While experiencing life here in the matrix those who are nearer to realizing their true nature naturally desire all creatures to exist in harmony. They choose their best approach, and are fluid in their choices to help make harmony the greater experience in this hologram.

Being fluid is to allow the Way. To allow the Way is to allow everything to be, including evil. Allowing evil doesn't mean we don't open a way for goodness. Allowing evil is just a first step in recognizing what evil is in our personal matrix without recoiling from, and hiding that evil. To allow it is to recognize it fully so as to be able to move accordingly from that fullness of awareness.

Evil is merely a temporary ignorance of our true nature. It only has a seeming reality within the matrix which is also a temporary energetic phenomenon. If we experience good and evil then that is how we temporarily see ourselves. When the battle between good and evil is seen through (allowed to be as it is) and we pass through that energetic experience then we are closer to our true nature.

We are each one of us powerful microcosms. These are some pointers toward how we can overcome this apocolypse we are in the midst of. It begins with looking within manifestation (our own manifested selves) and uncovering the Jewel that is at the heart of it all. From that energetic understanding we can allow the Way to manifest through our freed selves.

"I am conscious of"

"I am conscious"

"I am"

"..................................."

i am a fractal universe

2007-10-16T14:40:00.000-07:00

How do you like all of this infinite feeling? Aren't all of the endless varieties of flavours mixing into your body-mind exquisite? I walk, I feel, I touch, taste, smell, hear, see, cognize everything appearing before me. Everything is a fire of aliveness assailing this separate-entity-experience with the flowing patterns of Oneself. Across the road, a metallic object patterned from the self-same intelligent life-force that I am tastes itself inside of me through all of the available senses. This intimacy for you and me makes life a fragile event of cosmic dancing and we are all together a fractal universe, a joyous celebration of livingness happening now and now and now.....

phantoms

2007-10-15T23:33:00.000-07:00

'These things' are what you think you are

'Those things' are what you think you're not

Both are phantoms

john wheeler quote

2007-10-15T18:11:00.000-07:00

"There are no realized persons, since the whole point is to see that you have never been a person at all. So in seeing this, who is left with any characteristics to speak of? You are pure non-conceptual awareness itself, which is not a body, mind, person or any other concept, idea or thing. You are "no thing". So what attributes does "no thing" have or need? No-thing does not mean a vacuum or void. In spite of being no thing, you ARE. And what you are is aware. And what you are is perfectly whole, complete, adequate, untouched, beyond manifestation and at peace. This is also the source of life, energy and intelligence of all that appears. There are many pointers to what you are. All are inadequate because you are not a word!"

returning to presence

2007-10-15T12:45:00.000-07:00

When your mind follows something that you see or hear, like being carried away in thought upon hearing a conversation, what do you do to return to presence?

Here are some things to do:

Place the attention on the breath, it fills the inner space, and returns to outer space.

Put the focus on sight and touch by viewing your bare foot on the ground and feeling the earth beneath;

Listen to the source behind all sounds.

Catch fragrances, even the most subtle, moving through the air as they enter your nostrils and mouth;

Feel the energy of the breath course through your body, massaging it from within;

Smile, close your eyes, and follow the breaths deeper and deeper into your body and beyond;

Walk gently observing the intimacy of your body within and without, and dissolve the boundaries of sensation

picking and choosing (inspired by the hsin hsin ming)

2007-10-14T15:31:00.000-07:00

The natural way precludes picking and choosing.

Assuming a position, following one thing in preference over another, the way appears to be hidden.

By allowing things to be as they are, I disappear into nothingness.

There is no me, just this.

As it is, without artifice.

I am free

what's the matter?

2007-10-12T16:44:00.000-07:00

Does anything here matter? Sure it does, in as much as it is matter. But what is matter? When we look at it closely we see that matter is a dance of energetic patterns forever arising from an unknown source, appearing out of nowhere and returning to nowhere. Nothing stays constant in this eruption of matter. Nothing permanent exists. So does anything really matter? Only in as much as it is matter. Can you make it matter? You can try all you want but as soon as you think something matters it changes and trying to cling to it you find you cannot make it last. Matter always changes. Why grasp at phantoms? You are the seeing of matter's endless change. At the heart of all this is what you are.

2007-10-12T16:03:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGELA

I LOVE YOU

;-)

what are we?

2007-10-11T18:15:00.000-07:00

Are we the numbered breaths of a body?

Are we the waves of emotion?

Are we the things perceived?

Are we the perceiver?

Are we the perceiving itself?

Or are we none of these at all?

Just simply a mystery...

i am happy

2007-10-11T12:18:00.000-07:00

When I say "I am happy" what am I really saying? By saying "I am happy" I am saying first of all that "I am", I exist as an entity. This entity is seen as an individual that interacts with other individuals in a world seemingly composed of individual objects; me and you, this and that. To this recognition that "I am" is added a value of emotional content according to the energetic exchange of interactions with other people or objects. When these interactions feel good then I have a "happy" experience.

What is the emotion of "happy"?

It is a value judged on a scale of past experiences. The values are associated with pleasure and pain registered by the senses. In my experience of life I associate happiness with a value judged as good, or pleasurable, according to pleasure received through my senses from others. "I feel good, I am happy."

Happiness and pleasure are what we all learn to seek.

But "happy" isn't alone. On the other end of the value scale of sensual experience is sadness. It is measured in degrees of pain.

Sadness and pain are what we all learn to avoid.

Happy and sad in themselves are natural in the world of I am. There is nothing wrong with them intrinsically, for without them we would not experience all of the wonderful sensations and emotions of life.

Both happy and sad. Pleasure and pain.

The experience of suffering on this roller-coaster of happy and sad has nothing to do with the sensual experiences, or the emotional reactions. Sure being happy is pleasurable and being sad is not pleasurable, but you can see that they both belong in our realm of experience. In this world, like it or not, there is not just "happy". For happiness to exist it has to be where sadness also exists. This manifestation we call living in the world would not be without the full spectrum of experience that is available to us.

The suffering comes into being when we attempt to do the impossible...be only happy.

Avoiding pain and chasing pleasure accentuates the sensations by prolonging them. Attempting to stay out of sadness and remain in happiness, whether we do it with alcohol, drugs, sex, television, food, good company, or even something simply beautiful like a stay in nature, or a sublime meditative experience, is like trying to stop the sun from setting. It can't be done.

The drugs wear off. The sex is over. The seasons change. We are forced to let go of the happy experience and we cringe at the onset of pain.

We cannot stop the experiences from occuring, but we do have a choice to avoid suffering, happiness or no happiness.

If we accept both ends of the spectrum of experience as valid, happiness and sadness, pleasure and pain, understanding that both have their place for life to be, we understand that there ultimately is no possibility of adjusting the reality of any event that happens. Whether it feels good or not it is happening to us. Only in welcoming both can we minimize the suffering that comes about by clinging and avoiding.

By clinging to happiness and avoiding sadness we lengthen the rise and fall of these sensations and the experience of that tension is the suffering.

So when I am happy, that is good, pleasure has its place. But I know it cannot exist without pain and sadness.

I welcome them both as my experience of the play of life.